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Hungry and thirsty
after a long walk, obliged by theory and habit to take his meals at regular
times even when traveling, he enters a crowded tavern in search of dinner.
From hunks of beef which hang from the rafters, the tavern's clientele
cut strips of meat which they cover with butter before consuming avidly.
Only partially dispelled through the open windows, the smell of strong
tobacco fills the air.
He dislikes the
scene. The Dutch, it seemed, were always eating, and his own self-proscribed
diet of roots and fruits and eggs, guarantees, he hopes, of a long life
and ascetic compensation for the absence of French cuisine, seems to him
Lenten fare compared to the "overload" guzzled all around him: the loaves
of rye, the salmon, mussels, shrimp, the fruit breads, chicken, veal, onions,
parsnips, nuts, herring, lemons, cup after cup of tea and coffee, and tankard
after tankard of Rhenish and ale. In his excellent Dutch, he asks
for an omelet made from eggs hatched eight to ten days ago but is rebuffed
by an uncomprehending tavernkeeper. He orders turnips, a pear, plums, an
apple, cheese, and a little wine.
More than just
the gross needs of the stomach, he notes with passing curiosity, are being
satisfied around him. In the corner of the tavern, a man pulls playfully
at a woman's skirt, hoisting it above her knees, inspired by her seductive
laughter.
He is thinking
of an experiment he performed three or four years before and the discovery
that resulted, one of which he is most proud. He had acquired from a slaughterhouse
in Amsterdam the eye of an ox. In the back of it he cut away the membrane
and replaced it with paper. When he then held the eye up to the light he
witnessed, as he expected to, a small image of his room displayed on the
paper--but upside down! How absurd, he had thought then, to base our knowledge
of external things on a likeness so ephemeral and so comic. He vowed never
to trust again in the deceptions of the visible. He placed himself ever
on guard against illusion.
He reminds himself
of the provisional morality, the temporary housing, he had constructed
for himself years before, rules developed to guide his dealings with men
not as devoted as he to the discovery of truth. He repeats them to himself:
to always obey, however irrational they may seem, the laws and customs
of the country in which he finds himself; to be firm and resolute in his
actions, imitating (as he had once written) "those travelers who, finding
themselves lost in some forest, [do] not wander about by heading first
this way and then another way, nor still less remain in one place, but
. . . instead always walk as straight as they can in the same direction";
to seek control of himself rather than fortune; to dedicate his life to
development of his reason. His ethic soothes him. |