This last dream which had nothing in it that was not entirely mild and agreeable, bore, he believed, on the future, and on what was to happen to him during the remainder of his life. The two proceeding dreams he took to be menacing admonitions touching his past life which might not have been blameless before God as before men. That, as he believed, was the reason of the terror and dismay accompanying those two dreams. The melon offered him in his first dream signified, he would say, the charm of solitude, presented, however, in terms of purely human appeal. The wind which had been thrusting him against the church in the college, accompanied as it was by pain in his right side, was but the Evil Genius that was endeavoring to cast him by force into a place where it was his intention to go of his own accord. This was why God did not allow of his proceeding further on this course, or his being barred by a spirit not of His sending, even though the place was a holy place. None the less he was quite convinced that it had been the spirit of God which had made him take the first steps toward that church. The terror with which he was smitten in the second dream marked, as he felt, his "synderese", i.e. his remorse of conscience in respect of the sin he might have committed during the course of his previous life; and the thunder he took to be the signal of Truth descending on him to take possession of him.